missnat, I say this with caring and kindness: you are not going to get the answers you seek on MovieChat. You seem confused and unhappy. My heart goes out to you in a supportive and not condescending way. You would benefit from professional help, and that does NOT mean that I think you are “crazy” or have something wrong with you! You are confused and in pain, and a professional counselor can help you sort this out. I’d recommend a Social Worker. Did you know that most Social Workers have more training in clinical psychology than most psychiatrists? (A psychiatrist is a shrink who can prescribe drugs, so his focus is on drugs and not on feelings.) Social work is often free. I like you and I want you to feel better. God bless you.
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