Same thing basically happened to me, but in grade nine. I went to a Kindergarten to grade 8 school, and most of us were pretty close. I had a close group of friends, girls and guys and we stayed friends all summer before grade nine and the first couple months of grade nine. I was really ugly when I was younger (I still am not beautiful, probably about average, but definitely not as awkward as when I was younger) and so I started to get picked on about that.
A couple of the girls in my group of friends started to hang out with the popular group, and the popular group wanted nothing to do with me because of the way I looked. At first they just started telling people that I followed them around. I heard the rumors, and I got the hint and stopped hanging out with them. It hurt though since they had been my best friends. Then for some reason, the rest of my group except one turned on me as well. They started the whole "She follows us around" thing as well. So I stopped talking to them as well.
And then the teasing started, they all started calling me an ugly loser all the time. I got messages on MSN messenger from my friends about how ugly I am. So I blocked them. They sent me emails and talked about how ugly I am through the emails. So not only did I have to deal with being made fun of for being ugly at school, but home as well. I tried my hardest to look good, but it didn't matter. I wasn't overweight (although later I did let myself go because of it) but my face was.
By the end of ninth grade I was depressed and had no one except the one girl from my group of friends. I spent a lonely summer by myself after grade nine, and then I started grade ten and I met a new group of friends. But my old group still bothered me, and that's when I did start gaining weight, because I was depressed. So I ended up being both overweight and ugly.
Eventually in grade eleven though, I just decided to ignore them. I spent the first two years of my High School being bullied and my grades and everything were bad because of it. But in grade eleven, I realized I only had two years left to bring up my grades and to enjoy school. But they seemed to have either out grown bothering me, or they just didn't care anymore by that point. I rarely heard any ugly jokes in grade eleven or twelve.
And then after High School I decided to smarten up and lose the weight I had let myself gain. I am now thin again and I think I've grown into my looks. A few years ago, one of the guys who made my life a living hell actually asked me if I wanted to go out sometime. I of course turned him down. I don't care if he's grown up by this point (we're 27 now) he wrecked my self-esteem completely. He was one of my main tormentors. He was worse than the girls were. So even if I am friendly with him now, I will never date him.
The other girls talk to me now, and I talk to them but there is still the one girl who still hates me. The rest have apologized but she just can't seem to let it go. I live in a different city now than the town I grew up in and whenever I go down to visit family, and we bump into each other she is rude. She tells me I am still an ugly pathetic loser in her eyes. Which doesn't make sense to me. We're only 27, and she's had three divorces and four kids with different guys. She is currently living at home with her parents. While I've actually made a living for myself, and yet I am the pathetic one. I've pointed this out to her, but she doesn't seem to want to hear. I've never met anyone who can't seem to move past High School like she her. Most people I know move on, but from what people tell me, she is still a major bully. I don't get it. She's supposed to be a mother.
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