Im sure if you rewatch the series you would see more and more instances that she did good things- both while sober and not. however I have noticed that she has a much better track record sober.
I am realizing as I type this that it might sound a little bit - I dunno - nerdy or something. But one of the things I recall most from The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People is the whole emotional bank account thing. Just because you're making daily deposits (the good things that you do for a relationship) doesn't necessarily mean that you're not still overdrawn (the bad things you've already done, or your drafts).
If you withdraw like $10,000 from your account (which Jackie has done more than once, literally) - which for me is an instance like when she purposely let Gloria run over her foot and supply her with drugs out of guilt - you can turn around and do a number of relatively good things for Gloria and still be WAY in the red from Gloria's standpoint even over months and years. But Gloria doesn't even know that or the half - which is why as a viewer I view Jackie even more harshly.
The thing is, just by using every day and compromising her integrity little by little, Jackie was canceling out all of the good things she does that are her JOB to do (a noble endeavor but still a vocation). And then the big things started to add up to where there's really no resolving it unless she really makes a commitment to change for good. Which of course she's not going to do. But from her standpoint she's doing OK and doesn't deserve much judgment which is how most people tend to look at themselves even if they're not addicts. It's easy to forget or downplay the bad things you've done to other people.
And something else I wrote earlier does make me wonder - does being good at your job as a nurse mean that you're a good person? I say the two aren't mutually exclusive, and Jackie is a perfect example of that. And she also mistakenly believes the opposite.
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