It wasn't my first experience. It was my first bad experience. Unbelievably I would keep on doing them after (probably trying to convince myself that it was an anomaly and would have an even worse episode 5 months later.) I'll never touch them again though after reading about how it's witchcraft/sorcery. It totally makes sense too because people do these psychedelics and at first it's great and then they meet entities and so on and have great experiences and they lure them in to thinking it's a beautiful thing and then they keep doing them and potentially lose their minds at the end of the day.
That being said I know I made some mistakes. I was doing them initially to get over the death of a friend and they certainly did work in that regard. It alleviated my depression in a big way but it was such a wonderful experience my first one that I was trying to recapture and I guess you could say I became too 'flippant' (I can't think of a better word) about the whole thing. I've read that that's a mistake and people need to be "respectful" of the drug. Also I was drinking and I no idea my friend would pull that kind of thing on me. He's still my friend but I'm still having a tough time understanding why he did what he did. One day I'll talk to him about it. He seems to be avoidant anytime I've brought it up. It wasn't a good night for him either. He was falling on his face (in my mind over and over and over again). And ultimately I smashed his TV I guess but I don't remember that part.
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