Would you blame yourself or (maybe as self absolving human nature would dictate) would you turn to blame the guy who's vessel you're in and who is sat right beside you?
Excellent question and I don't mind telling you how absolutely disturbing it is for me to run this scenario through my mind in order to answer this.
I would absolutely blame myself first. No doubt. My son is there in that stupid sub because I'm there. Before I add to that (and there's more), let me tell you a story. When my oldest son was an infant, I was changing his diaper and he had a raging case of diaper rash. I know that fecal matter is full of bacteria and must be thoroughly cleaned from the rash area to effect healing or it just gets worse. To that end, I used the alcohol wipes and scrubbed the area to make sure it was clean. My infant son of course was screaming from the pain of having alcohol in an open wound and I teared up as I knew I was hurting him. I'm an agnostic on a good day and atheist most, but I said a prayer that morning for a deal with God that if I ever did something to cause serious harm or death to my son (intentional or otherwise), that God would immediately strike me dead instead. I told my wife of the deal so that if I ever fell over dead, it was to prevent me from harming our son (I think one of those "infant left in a hot car" things had recently been reported).
Now, being an engineer, I would probably blame the idiot who cheaped out and didn't put in some kind of homing beacon, or didn't have a back-up "game controller", a fresh set of AA batteries to run the stupid controller, or a way to eject the sub's ballast manually if there was a power or automation failure.
How I would react outwardly I don't know. It's not my nature to lash out either physically or verbally, so while I would place half of the blame on the sub's owner, I probably would realize there would be zero to gain making a scene and making our last minutes worse.
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