The idea from this thread came from finding random money that doesnt belong to you. From the responses, it sounded like some people had some guilty consciences and wanted to get things off their chest. So here is your opportunity guys.
LONG,LONG LIST BRO.MY YOUNGER YEARS WERE SPENT RUNNING AMUK,BERSERKER STYLE.WASNT UNTIL MY LATE 20S WHEN MY DAUGHTER WAS BORN THAT I DEVELOPED A MORE MATURE LIFESTYLE AND REGRET OVER MY PAST TRANSGRESSIONS.
When I was 12 I was on vacation and was walking by myself in between a set of houses and there was a cat standing there. When I moved, the cat followed me. It started to purr really aggressively. Everytime I moved it would lean into the direction I was going. I was scared that it was going to attack me, so I put my foot underneath its belly and tossed it far enough for me to move away safely.
Looking back at it now, I feel bad about doing it and I can't believe I did it. I never really expected the cat to be hurt when I did it (don't think it was because it walked off afterward) but I was just scared. I often think about if I saw a kid doing it now, how my reaction would be. Would I understand or would I tell them how wrong it was? Maybe both.
Nothing horrible. We ended up becoming very different people in terms of worldview and politics, that doesn't help. So I think it is the combination of the two. I'm certainly not overwhelmed by guilt, just wish I had been a better brother.
Based on reality though, unfortunately. Similar situation with my sister, although she was the bully and then finally blanked me; no great loss to be honest.
I sat next to a guy in a cinema once called Intothenight, wearing a dress and a wig, making munching, licking and slurping noises until he moved seats.
When I was a kid there was this girl at school who was a little odd, and I know I was mean to her on more than one occasion. I don't think I meant to, but it was just so easy. She disappeared in Jr. High. I met up with her as an adult and we had coffee. I asked her where her family had moved to, and she told me that she didn't move, but that there were these girls at school who bullied her so much that she had to be removed from school and she spent time in the hospital.
I apologised to her and she was stunned and asked me for what?? I said that I thought that I was mean at times and that I should have stood up for her. She told me that she had always thought of me as one of her best friends.
It really broke my heart. I know I was mean to her. I remember being mean. But that no one else was nice to her either that she felt that I was one of her best friends and she listed all the times that I was kind to her and included her.
Little girls can be so cruel to each other. :(
I still talk to her, we still have coffee occasionally. It's just made me really conscious that kindness can make such an impact.
She has her parents and her brother's family, but not one of her own. She has recently joined a new church. While I am an atheist, I am supportive of it. It's a really great community for her, and she has made a lot of new friends. I'm always on cult watch with new churches, but this one really does seem to be okay.
you, perhaps, remember better your cruelties than your kindnesses. it sounds like you rebuilt that relationship, which has to be somewhat a rehabilitation for your both.