At the end when Patrick is resting on his bed in his flat, he imagines himself as a child again.
His father tells him to come over to the bed, but the young Patrick says "No." to his father.
Did this really happen when he was a child, or was he just wishing he had said that?
I believe it’s his vision of what he should have said and how his father should have reacted, and he is now well enough to believe he was capable of saying it.
Talking there one afternoon, in front of a window that looks out over the communal garden, St. Aubyn described how, at eight, he resisted his father in a hotel bedroom, when they were on “some sort of faux expedition” together. There was, he said, a David-and-Goliath moment. “I thought, He’ll probably kill me but I can’t. . . . I’m going to stop him if I can.” He imitated a small boy in a boxer’s pose, and laughed. He recalled saying a single phrase: “I don’t want to do that anymore.” His father “collapsed,” he said.
Around this time, his parents were divorcing. “That’s probably part of what gave me the courage to do it,” St. Aubyn said. After the breakup, St. Aubyn, now a “delinquent and illiterate” schoolboy in London, was expected to interrupt his Provençal vacations with long visits to his father’s house, whose only windows faced inward, into a courtyard choked with weeds. “It was fucking spooky,” St. Aubyn said. “Poverty and dereliction, and self-neglect, and nobody ever visiting. My father was too depressed to speak, a lot of the time, and if he did he talked about suicide. In a way, he was showing me what I’d done to him, by refusing to continue to be abused. He was reproaching me, saying, ‘Look what you’ve reduced me to—from being this master sadist I’m now this ruin.
The abuse also started eariler when he was only 3 and ended when he was eight ,as you read ..when you have time you should read the whole article.
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I think the confusion arises because Patrick looks the same age he looked when he was first abused. As an adult, he had said more than once that his abuse lasted years. So did this standing-up-for-himself scene take place at a later age as is suggested by the article on St. Aubyn or was it as I suggested, a hopeful daydream for purposes of storytelling?