The soul of Robert Durst
The recording in the bathroom made me feel sorry for him. How can a person become so lost? How can he live with himself all these years? For me, the sentence of living with that black conscience is the most terrifying prison. Having to keep up with all his lies, and justifying his actions to himself is exhausting. It's a miserable existence. And when he said in the bathroom "Oh, I want this," I interpreted it as him secretly want to get caught in order break free with the truth, in order to find peace in his soul. He even told Andrew Jarecki that he will answer ALL his questions, which means he wanted and expected the truth to be found out. "There it is. You're caught." Why didn't he just confess then? Well, it takes a lot of courage to confess, and he's so deep in his lies he's scared *beep* Imagine being in his position who has so much to lose, who has an army of lawyers who tell him that going to prison is the worst thing that can happen to him. His life is not his to live and I believe he suffers. Every day. That's why you see pictures of him smiling now and you can see his eyes again. He's actually happy that he's busted because now everyone knows he killed them. There's nothing to hide anymore. The documentary is a journey into Robert Durst's soul, one plagued and tortured with guilt, fear and shame and his last trace of humanity kicking and screaming to get out.
http://nypost.com/2015/04/02/why-is-robert-durst-smiling/
http://www.newyorker.com/news/daily-comment/what-shakespeare-knew-about-robert-durst "Evil rarely laughs evilly in delight at its misdoings; it smiles the tight, shared smile of resignation, and then blinks its eyes."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RKKOH9zvTj4