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This documentary made me feel for Kurt, so bad

posted 10 years ago by FreeFallFlow
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I thought the documentary was pretty well made, combining beautiful animation, animated art, journal excerpts, and home videos, it was a pretty loud and intense dive in Kurt's life, especially on the big screen.

Sadly enough, it really made me realize for the 1st time what a lousy life and relationships Kurt had, and how miserable and lost he had been... Absent parents who didn't give a cr@p, a mother in law who goes on smiling even when saying horrible things like needing Kurt kicked out of the house...Poor Kurt never got the recognition he craved for, but not to the point of being an icon...His mother sounds so phoney too, reshaping memories in order to shine...And then his blood sucking wife...

Montage of Heck is supposed to celebrate Kurt, and be full of energy, yet i never felt so sad about his life, some scenes were really disturbing to me, like that storage room where Morgen goes to, it was so weird seing his stuff scattered around, boxed, it felt like a morgue, i had the feeling his corpse could have been lying around somewhere...I don't know, i felt so much solitude in all this...Like he can't be at rest. His body of work dissected, even if it's interesting, it's...heart wrenching...

Same thing at the very end of the movie, when the music stops and you can just hear the vocals, Kurt screaming his heart out, it was eerie, like he's still screaming from somewhere, trapped, and we're still delighting ourselves watching his life and downfall...

Then the home videos...As nice as it is to see Kurt and Frances, i could only cringe at the sight of Courtney..being all Courtney...He was such a sensitive guy, i think he felt she had more "balls" than he had, and that's probably what drew him to her, but man, what a horrible, unbearable person...She had him on a very tight leash...& He must have been an easily swayed person...That rage towards the journalist who brought up Courtney's heroin use during her pregnancy, that phone call, it sounded like Courtney through Kurt's mouth...
I'm sure he loved her (up to a point), but Courtney's love for him..? He was a stepping stone to her. Was it necessary for her to mention that she considered cheating on him and almost did (like she never did, sure), and go on about it for 3 minutes, when the actual question was about his sensitivity..?

I don't know, i left the theater feeling incredibly sad, even though i already knew a lot about his life, about Courtney and everything, the documentary unintentionally brought together a solitude i had never fully grasped.

Throughout the movie i was thinking of how Frances must have felt watching this, it must have been tough...A great and sensitive human being as a father she never got to know, and a succubus as a mother, in the midst of the public eye...No wonder she changed her appearance so much and is now the spitting image of her dad...I hope she gets a good life and makes something of that messed up chaos...

[–] mel_0 10 years ago

I felt just about the same. Cried a few times. He had a sad life. Hope things go better for his daughter and she has a little Kurt of her own some day.

[–] raygunpunx-465-246490 10 years ago

He wanted to be a better father to his daughter then he had so he goes and kills himself. He comes across as nothing but a narcissist who cared about nothing but himself

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[–] FreeFallFlow 10 years ago

he believed Frances would be better off without him

That's what's written at the very end of the note he left, and only those words may turn that note into an apparent 'suicide note'. If you look at at it as a whole, he mostly expresses his loss of interest in being onstage, he doesn't mention wanting to die, or not being able to go on with his life, etc.

Strangely enough, it's no news but still, those last few added lines are written in quite a different hand writing, and papers in Courtney's stuff were found with that forgery kind of sh*t, and she said that they used to try to imitate their respctive handwritings, for fun. Yeah.

It's just one of those weird facts, among many, that leads to the very plausible idea that Kurt didn't kill himself . I guess we'll never know, but it's a strong possibility, and it's terrible to think it may be murder.

In any case, if she's involved, Courtney will take it to her grave. She's a horrible, powerful and manipulative woman, and she has the means to do whatever she pleases.

Talking about this doesn't change a thing, Kurt is dead, Frances lost her dad, but the truth may not be what it seems to be, and that's pretty disturbing.

[–] bruiser-t-cat 9 years ago

"she said that they used to try to imitate their respctive handwritings, for fun. Yeah". - when did she say that? Can you link it for me?

[–] FreeFallFlow 10 years ago

I don't mean to be judgmental, but clearly, when people come to resort to suicide, they're in such an altered state of mind, that even their loved ones can't make up for how horribly bad they feel on the inside. I've known my share of suicides, and i understand what can go through one's mind. It is selfish from a certain angle, but when you're not inside the person's shoes, you can't judge them for their despair that leads them to such extreme actions...

Yes, it is horrible to have a kid and leave her behind, but you can't blame someone for not being able to bear life and committing suicide.

If suicide it was, that is.....

I don't want to bring up the 'old' polemic, but damn, there is a lot of weird and very disturbing circumstances surrounding Kurt's death, and it may *very well* be that he didn't kill himself at all. It's just so big that it's easily disregarded, but clearly Courtney the psycho cannot be underestimated.

I turned a blind eye to that after reading that book the 1st time a few years ago, convincing myself it would be too horrible if he didn't kill himself; but if it was indeed murder, it's far more horrible than suicide, and the person responsible for his death is getting away with it easy peasy...

I'm not easily gullible nor into conspiracy theories, but when you have a closer look at everything, it looks very, very wrong...

Anyway, this is just to say he may have loved his daughter to the point of not killing himself...

[–] serafoxxy 9 years ago

you weren't in his shoes dude, don't judge

[–] Cyndy08080 10 years ago

So much of the material was new to me so mostly I was happy during viewing to kinda "see" him again. your thoughts on the film are a beautifully written tribute to him, I cried during the slow version of team spirit and felt the way your describing, that sadness, and the end left me a little bit heart broken for him.

[–] yusef-ghanima 9 years ago

his screwed up mom was the one responsible from the bridge song, after she throw him out of the house and he was moving between friends' houses, the library and underneath the bridge.