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I think the people who bullied me got their ideas from the book or movie

posted 9 years ago by Saturn_24
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I have been bullied throughout my life - when I was a kid, in Jr. High, and in High School. I was mainly bullied because I have Asperger's Syndrome - I don't have the best social skills and can get upset easily. People called me retarded, and because of my disability, I didn't have any friends, so if someone bullied me, it was my word against the bully's. The bully would have their friends lie for them and say that they didn't do anything; because of this they would ALWAYS get away with bullying me and if I fought back, I would get in trouble since the bully could say that I did or said something that never happened, and their friends would back up their lie.

Many things happened to me but a few things stand out:

1. When I was nine years old, people on the bus threw Halloween candy at me - some of it got stuck in my hair and on my clothes. They got away with it, even though an adult was present when this happened. The ring leader of this was an eleven year old girl, and she was popular.

2. When I was in Jr. High a boy started the name "Scary Terry" - I would continue to be called this name for the rest of my school years even though my name wasn't even close to or rhyme with Terry. I tried ignoring this but it continued throughout my school years. I don't know where they got the name Terry from, but I think they got inspired by the original film/novel Carrie.

The reason I think this is because on a local website, the boy who started the name "Scary Terry" made a hate thread about me. I was not a member of this website nor had I seen this boy in four years. He was now eighteen and so was I. One of the posts someone made on the thread was that they heard that if they didn't say my real name I would shoot them with blood red lightning rays - for some reason I think they got the idea from reading Carrie or watching the original film (I graduated in 2008).

3. While I was in Jr. High, a girl that regularly bullied me one day found me on the playground and beat me up. She said I owed some kids apologies for saying things I didn't say. I apparently called these little kids names (which I hadn't) and when I asked when did I supposedly call these kids the names I was accused of calling them she said a date that I didn't even see them - I was in a town an hour away, visiting friends of the family, and these people I was visiting never had any kids nor did I mention anyone to them!

She made me apologize and I did, only because she started kicking and punching me; I tried to escape but she had friends that circled me and prevented me from leaving. I didn't even know one of the kids that she accused me of being mean to!

Later that day she found me outside and dumped dog crap in my hair. I told my mother but mom wouldn't do anything about it. Then, a few hours later, the girl came to my door and mom answered. The girl said that if she saw me outside ever again she would kill me. This prompted mom to call the police; the police didn't charge her with assaulting me, all they did was give her a verbal warning for threatening me!

4. When I was in High School (I was in Grade 10), a girl similar to the one in Jr. High physically attacked me because I was constantly sniffing - I have a sinus problem that for some reason can't be fixed. It was a snowstorm and we were waiting for the bus. The girl pushed me down, kicked me, and broke my glasses. She had a friend with her, and because no teachers were around, she said I slipped on the ice and did it myself - even though there was a bruise on my left rib, left leg, and bump on my head. Her friend backed up her lie and the teachers believed her, so she didn't get in trouble.

5. This same High School girl wrote me a fake April Fools Day love letter when I was in Grade 12. The letter was not a nice one at all - it said things such as "I love your greasy hair" - even though my hair isn't greasy, and how it loved my sniffing problem. The girl signed it with a fake name, using a fictional character from my favorite Japanese Anime (which is InuYasha). I went to the principal but that day the principal was busy and could not see me. I was also busy because I had an assignment due the next day and an important test that Friday. The letter made me upset but I did not want the girl or her friends to know that I was upset, so I pretended to be happy and tried to ignore it. I did not see the principal at all after this happened, I decided to tear up the letter and throw it away; I felt I was too busy to deal with this issue because of the assignment and upcoming test.

On April 5th a guy that I thought was my friend contributed to the hate thread that the guy from Jr. High started about me (he started it when I was in grade 12). The guy that I thought was my friend said "Nobody actually likes me, nobody can stand me at all, and you can tell I know it yet I try like a *beep* psychopath to be your friend" (except he said "Nobody actually likes her, nobody can stand her at all, and you can tell she knows it yet she tries like a *beep* psychopath to be your friend"). He also mentioned the fake April Fools Day love letter and said that he would love to find the letter and post it on the website, as well as find out who wrote the letter so he could personally thank them. The only reason he found out about the letter was because it fell out of my pocket during a class we had together. I asked him if he knew who wrote it but he said no, and I took it back. It was after this that I went to the principal and decided to get rid of it. Even if he did find it, he would never be able to post it or put it together since I tore it into many tiny pieces.

My mom went to the school and spoke with the principal about the post the guy that I thought was my friend made; the principal said that the only thing that could be done was the guy's mom could be called. The day after my mom spoke with the principal, I was called to the principal's office. The guy and his mom were there. The guy gave me an apology letter, but the apology letter he gave me was a fake one - he claimed he was very sorry and should have never did what he did. His mom also said that he was grounded from using the computer for a month.

The guy also gave me the real "apology" letter - except it wasn't an apology letter at all. It basically said that it was my fault that he contributed to the hate thread because of my sinuses, shi*ty communication skills, and that I was always freaking out - I was always having these overwhelming senses of fear that I could not control which I later found out, after graduating High School, were Complex Partial Seizures. They were misdiagnosed as Anxiety Attacks and I was put on medication because of that misdiagnosis but the medication didn't work - and the physician I had at the time kept me on that medication even though I kept telling him that it wasn't working! Oh yea, the guy also said that I should be thankful that he didn't mention in his post that I like this TV show called Rescue Heroes - I don't care who knows that I like that show since at the time people were always going around with Dora The Explorer backpacks and wearing Dora The Explorer keychains, and this included the people that were bullying me. I didn't publically display any Rescue Heroes items, my so-called friends knew that I liked it because I told them, and they told me that they liked things such as Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and Dora The Explorer.

Anyway, while the guy was supposedly grounded from using the computer, he told people that I hacked his MSN and Facebook accounts, and if anyone got a message, it wasn't from him, it was from me. I didn't even know how to hack so when I asked another person who I thought was my friend (and she was also his friend) to talk to him and tell him that I didn't hack his account - he wouldn't even speak or listen to me, she said she would but in the end, she never. Instead, they played Crazy Eights when she said she would talk to him. I had realized that the guy wasn't my friend after he contributed to the hate thread, and I also realized that the girl wasn't my friend either after she didn't stick up for me, she just told me to "forget about it" but that was (and still is) pretty hard to do since he had everyone thinking that I hacked his accounts and made everything up - including the posts!

Also, the administrators for that website did not do anything about the hate thread, I found out one of the users that contributed to the hate thread was also an administrator and we were in the same school! The police wouldn't do anything either since I wasn't being threatened - apparently the police will only do anything if there is a threat posted.

6. When I went to the Grade 12 grad (my mother forced me to go even though I didn't want to) there was a part of the grad called the "Humor Awards" - they had categories such as "Most Likely To Die Studying" and "Most Likely To Take Over The World". I was one of the nominees for "Most Likely To Take Over The World". I didn't win, but this was another way of the bullies to say "Scary Terry". I looked to the table behind me and the girl that beat me up during the snowstorm in Grade 10 (and also wrote that fake April Fools Day love letter) smirked at me and I said quietly, "you were one of the people that nominated me, weren't you?" and she nodded.

By the way, we had to pick who we wanted to sit with at the grad and I ended up sitting with four people - two of those were people I never talked to very often, and the other two were people that bullied me. We had to say who we wanted to sit with a few months before the grad happened, and, at the time, I wanted to sit with the girl that I thought was my friend, but that girl already picked who she wanted to sit with, and I wasn't one of those people.

Sorry for the long post; my point is that I can relate to Carrie, since we were both bullied in similar ways - Carrie had tampons thrown at her while I had Halloween Candy thrown at me, Carrie was called "Crazy Carrie" while I was called "Scary Terry", Carrie had mean things written and posted about her and the same thing happened to me, and I think the person that said that if they didn't say my name I would shoot them with blood red lightning rays got the idea from reading or watching Carrie because Carrie had telekinetic powers. I'm going to be honest and say that I wish I could shoot blood red lightning rays and/or have telekinetic powers since if I did I would use them on the people who bullied me. I know that may be evil, but I do not like the fact that these people got away with what they did to me. Some of these people still bully me when they see me, I have even seen posts made online about me from the bullies that sometimes see me.

On Facebook, I have now blocked every single person that has ever bullied me so they cannot contact me and my profile picture isn't even of me, it's of my cat, so if any of these people decide to make a side account and look me up, they will not find a picture of me. Any pictures or posts I have are private, you can only see them if you are a friend of mine and you can only send me a friend request if you have a mutual friend. If I notice that a person who sends me a friend request is one of the people who participated in any way to the bullying that I have experienced, I will not accept the request. I once tried putting a picture of myself as my profile picture, and, even though I had all of the people who have ever bullied me blocked, one of them made a side account and put the profile picture on a website for people wanting to *beep* saying that I am a w**** that will *beep* anyone. I found out about this after googling my name one day; this person put my name, phone number, and home address on the website. I reported the profile and it was taken down; I also reported it to the police but they said nothing could be done since they only handle death threats.

I am just wondering if anyone else has had the experiences I have had and what you think about what I have gone through.

[–] smj_marley 9 years ago

I was only bullied briefly before I kicked back (losing two teeth in the process!) but it was nothing like the the terrible, long ordeal that you went through. Your account moved me deeply and I truly believe you are an exceptional, courageous person.

By the way, one of the bullies ended up in prison and I eventually became a successful novelist. Things can sometimes work out in the end!

Every best wish, now and in your future.

Stephen

[–] gentlegee1976 9 years ago

So sorry to hear about your story. Bullies are cowardly scum, always remember that.

[–] Saturn_24 9 years ago

I will remember that; unfortunately the motto at one of the schools seemed to be "Support the bullies, without your support they won't be able to bully". Even this motto was never said, the actions from the staff at the school (by not doing anything and sticking up for the bullies) made me believe that this was a motto they have.

[–] Saturn_24 9 years ago

Thank you for your kind words. Ironically, one of the people who bullied me (his name was Steven) in Jr. High was well-liked by a guidance counsellor who was always rude to me; in her eyes, I was always the one at fault because I was "retarded". She told me that Steven (who always behaved like an angel around her, he would be mean to me when staff members were not present) was a good role model and I should be more like him.

In 2010, five years after I graduated that horrible Jr. High School Steven was on the news, apparently he was arrested for stabbing someone to death as well as stabbing another person, who didn't die, but was sent to the hospital.
I thought about going back to that Jr. High school and saying to that Guidance Counsellor "Is Steven a good role model now?"

In the meantime, I am still waiting to get a job, it is very difficult when you live in a society that is reluctant to give you a chance if you have a disability, even if it is mild.

[–] psdhart 9 years ago

In the meantime, I am still waiting to get a job, it is very difficult when you live in a society that is reluctant to give you a chance if you have a disability, even if it is mild.

Good luck, sorry to hear your sad story

[–] Saturn_24 9 years ago

Thanks; I didn't mean for it to sound like a "poor me" story by the way, I just wanted to say that I noticed the similarities in the ways Carrie and I were treated.

[–] jackrabbit83 9 years ago

Is this the same Steven?

http://www.tampabay.com/news/courts/criminal/jury-finds-steven-wesolek-guilty-of-murder-in-2010-hernando-stabbing/1229606

[–] JadedMermaid 9 years ago

Awesome post, I can definitely relate.

When I was in Middle School (or Jr. High) I was very shy and quiet, and I had a hard time making friends. I was bullied by this boy in 6th grade who mocked me for my appearance and my weight, but it didn't get bad until 7th grade,

Two girls, who were friends and in my classes, decided one day to make me their target. They slowly started tormenting me by first calling me names when I'd walk into class and when they'd see me in the halls and then it progressed. I'd sit down and throughout class would feel things hitting my back and head and turned around to see them crumbling up bits of paper and balling them up getting ready to aim at me and also throwing erasers and small bits of pencils, all whilst laughing and encouraging other students, my classmates, to join them.

The one friend I had in the class turned on me and joined their side, which I know they did on purpose because they wanted me to be completely isolated. I had no one to turn too anymore and the bullying got even worse. I remember one day, I was walking to Science class and one of the girls, the ringleaders, came up behind me and shoved me into a locker and then ran off laughing. I was so shy that I was too afraid to tell anyone and I began to get really depressed and no longer wanted to attend school.

Eventually, one day, I cracked. I got up in class to sharpen my pencil and I heard the girls cracking up and whispering. As I was walking back to my seat, one of them shouted "Why do you walk that way?! Is it because your ass is so fat?" and the class erupted into laughter. I called my mom crying and a few days later, we both went to the schools principal and demanded something be done about them or there would be legal consequences (I have family that work for the law).

Nothing was really done. I was moved to different classes and the principal ordered the girls to stay away from me for the rest of their time at the school or else they'd be sent to an alternative school. I think if it had happened in this day and age, they would've gotten at least a light suspension since bullying is taken very seriously in all schools these days, but this was back in the mid 2000s so I guess it wasn't such a huge epidemic yet.

My experience isn't as bad as yours, but bullying is so cruel. I hate bullies.

[–] Saturn_24 9 years ago

I'm glad that the principal did something about the issue. I didn't have any help and it seemed that the schools I attended had the motto "Support the bullies, without your support they won't be able to bully" since they always let the bullies get away with doing things, even if the teacher or principal witnessed it!

And the only time that a principal did anything was when the guy contributed to the hate thread about me online, saying in his post "Nobody actually likes her, nobody can stand her at all, and you can tell she knows it yet she tries like a *beep* psychopath to be your friend", etc. All the principal did was call the guy's mother, since the principal said nothing could actually be done because it occurred outside of school. The fact that I was treated like s*** while I was in school (and even after I left, since some bullies still say things when they see me - and I'm 26; most of the people that bully me are 23-30.

I don't know if the schools where I live are supporting bullying (I say they support the bullies if they don't do anything at all, which is what happened 99% of the time) anymore, but I wouldn't be surprised if they were still supporting it. I graduated in 2008 and I did not return for the graduation ceremony that took place a few months after I graduated, nor did I attend the reunion. Why would I want to go back to a place that made me miserable?

Also, I may be wrong but I think the Jr. High School I was in where the name "Scary Terry" started (this was the school that supported bullying 100% since the bullies ALWAYS got away with bullying me and if I even told the bully to "shut up" I would get in trouble, yet the bullies would be allowed to do or say whatever they wanted to) got the karma it deserved. In September 2007 an electrical fire occurred on the second floor of the school, destroying all rooms on that floor. The staff that treated me like s*** because of my mild form of Asperger's Syndrome were still working at the school (these were the people who would let the bullies do whatever they wanted to me) when the fire happened. They had to shut down the school for two months and move the classes to a different school for that period of time. Apparently the staff had to work from 4:00 p.m. to 9:00 p.m. because the school they temporarily moved to did not have enough classrooms for both schools. I think that the staff members were frustrated by this and might have been upset. Because of the issues the fire caused, I think that it was karma for the staff members of that Jr. High School.

Would you consider it karma?

[–] kaydie-fee 9 years ago

There was an episode of Big wolf on campus (anyone else remember that show?) with a Carrie spoof and the Carrie White type character in it was called 'Scary Terri', maybe that's where they got it from ? I'm sorry you had to go through all that, it's disgusting that the school didn't sort it out for you and that anyone could treat another person like that

[–] Saturn_24 9 years ago

I saw that episode (it was the first episode I watched; someone else suggested the name might have come from that). I don't know if it came from there or not. The name "Scary Terry" was also used in the movie "Phantom Of The Megaplex"; the girl called "Scary Terry" was called that name because she told stories that would scare people, resulting in them running away from the cinema.

The "Terry" in "Scary Terry" for me ended with a "y"; I know this because of the hate thread that the person who originally came up with the name posted, even though it was four years since we last saw each other - he started the name in 2001 and the last time we saw each other was 2004.

[–] SpareEricDevil 9 years ago

Hopefully Karma happen to your Bullys

[–] Saturn_24 9 years ago

Due to the bullying issues I have faced, I have developed a form of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. Through research, I have discovered that I have developed Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder because of what I have gone through, and it still won't leave me to this very day. People tell me to "let it go" and I have tried but how can you when you have gone through an extremely long period of time where you were treated like dirt?

I recently ran into one of the staff members that worked at the Jr. High school I attended. They saw that I was at a store by myself and asked why was I by myself. They were one of the people who treated me like I was "retarded" when I was in that horrible Jr. High school. I looked at them and said that I go places by myself all the time and, contrary to what they believe, I am not someone who can't do anything or has to be supervised. I then pointed out that thanks to the experience I had at that Jr. High School I have developed Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. All they said was "Ha!" I didn't say anything else though, I left.

Schools that support/encourage bullying make me sick.

I am wondering if anyone else has developed Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder because of the bullying they experienced in their lifetime?

[–] SpareEricDevil 9 years ago

Saturn 24
I Sorry you were Pick on by Bad Kids, Noone should picked on by bad kids

[–] Saturn_24 9 years ago

Thanks.

Were you ever picked on? And some of those kids still haven't grown up; they're my age (I'm 26) and they STILL pick on me!

[–] SpareEricDevil 9 years ago

[–] Saturn_24 9 years ago

You're lucky.

[–] bjamzilla 8 years ago

Beyond sorry for you, girl. People like that will get theirs. But don't focus on them. They don't deserve it. Focus on your healing. Join support groups. Do what makes you happy. For every sick, cold hearted bully out there there is one really kind, empathetic person, eager to befriend and help people who have been hurt as much as you.

Wildcattin'...Wildcattin'. Pow! I'm gonna go.

[–] Saturn_24 8 years ago

Thanks. Today I ran into one of the people who bullied me in school and still bullies me. The person scowled and muttered "freak". I was coming out of the bathroom as they were going in. This person has a lot of friends; I gave up with trying to make friends a long time ago, shortly after the guy who pretended to be my friend said "nobody actually likes her, nobody can stand her at all..." I am nice to people but very guarded; I find that a lot of people in the world are pretty nasty.

Sorry if I seem negative, I'm just stating this from experiences I have had/am still having.

[–] bjamzilla 8 years ago

I gave up trying to make friends too during my junior year of HS. I still made a few, but I was never the social butterfly I aspired to be and on top of being depressed I got angry. I still sometimes have my angry, crying 'woe is me' days, but I know its not going to make me better and the truth is, I still have my whole future ahead of me and so do you. Some days, I've tried very hard not to hate people and hate myself, while other days, I meet someone so kind or I hear about them from a book or TV or whatever and it makes me get so emotional. There are really good people out there and some of them have even had it worse than us, but they still go about their day, with a smile on their face.

And for me, I know when I do have those 'everybody sucks' days, that I still have my faith and the knowledge that God will always love me no matter what happens. I would just hold on to whatever makes you believe in love and goodness when you're having those bad days and like I said before, do what makes you happy. You're on imdb, so I'd assume movies might he a favorite pastime for you. Whenever I'm down, I watch a feel good movie.

And remember that you're a special person. Anyone that went through what you went through is good in my book. I just realized that most of favorite celebrities had abusive pasts, and now they're successful and that unique experience may have even been an advantage for them. I'm not saying we'll ever gain celebrity status(nor do I want that, lol) but I know we'll be okay. I wish you the very best.

Wildcattin'...Wildcattin'. Pow! I'm gonna go.

[–] Saturn_24 8 years ago

Thanks; I wish you the very best too.

One good thing came from the guy who posted "Nobody actually likes her, nobody can stand her at all..." I posted about his post in a Myspace journal (this happened in 2008). I was friends with the members of a rock band called Hydrovibe. One of the members commented on my journal, saying that what the guy did was horrible. A year later, Hydrovibe released a CD called "Nothing Left To Lose". I read in an interview that their songs came from both personal experiences and some stories from their fans. One of their songs, "The Devil Comes Disguised As Friend", seemed to describe what this guy did (particularly the lyrics "The Devil comes disguised as friend, a handshake and a hidden agenda" - this described how the guy said he only pretended to be my friend and he would love to find whoever wrote that fake April Fool's Day love letter, thank them, and post it online). I sent a message to the member who had commented on my journal and asked if my story gave the band the idea to write that song. The member said yes. I would never want celebrity status but the fact that an incident such as the one I described inspired a band to write a song makes me realize that at least one positive thing came out of one of the many horrible experiences I have had.

Here is a YouTube link for the song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p_DbeiPB3a4

Here are the lyrics:

In a moment of weakness I threw intuition away
An illusion of interest barely masking your intent to betray
Things can never be the same
How can I trust you again?
Was it all just a game?
Is it always a game?

Who will come to my defense?
I’m facing fire in every direction
The devil comes disguised as friend
A handshake and a hidden agenda

Slowly spreading infection; recruiting my own for your game
Such sick orchestrations test our faith in all of humanity

And things can never be the same
How can I trust you again?
Was it all just a game?
Is it always a game? (if so I’ll win)

Who will come to my defense?
I’m facing fire in every direction
The devil comes disguised as friend
A handshake and a hidden agenda

In times like these we discover the innocence is over
Nothing's unconditional anymore
And trust is only casual… nothing personal

Who will come to my defense?
I'm facing fire in every direction
The devil comes disguised as friend
A handshake and a hidden agenda

[–] JWagoner812 8 years ago

Hi Saturn,

Your story just about broke my heart. But I can relate. I had my fair share of bullying when I was growing up. Not to the extreme you had, but I had some. In my case, I was a skinny, gawky redhead. I did have friends though. The 5th grade was the worst year for me. I was in a class full of bullies. They ruined my lunches, tripped me, threw things at me, and called me names. I became extremely nervous and my grades slipped. Then something strange happened. Two girls who bullied me, wanted to find out where I lived so they could come over and beat me up at home. I came home from the store with my mom and saw the girls at my next door neighbor's asking them where I lived. They saw me and came over. Much to my amazement, we hung out for the afternoon, rode bikes, ate, talked and played games. It was like we have been buddies for years. After that day, they never bothered me again at school. We didn't become friends, but the bullying from them stopped.

I did have problems in Jr. High. Seventh grade was the worst for me. I developed acne and I wore braces. People called me ugly to my face. Eighth grade was much better, but I did have one girl who was always trying to pick fights with me. One day I had enough. She pushed me too far and I kicked her and shoved her to the ground. She stopped bothering me after that.

Anyway, that's just a small example of what I endured. High school was okay, I didn't have many problems. Today I look at bullies as cowards and having serious social issues, and I believe it's a learned behavior from either parents and/or peer pressure. Even adults can bully. I personally feel sorry for them. I have all different kinds of friends, and it doesn't matter if they're disabled, have a "condition" or a medical problem. It's the persons' character and heart that matters. You sound like you're far above and beyond those bullies who tormented you. Even without meeting you, you sound so much smarter than any of them. They're all pathetic and need help.

You always have a friend in me if you want. In the meantime, I will pray for your PTSD and other things you're going through. Remember, God loves you.

[–] Saturn_24 8 years ago

Thank you for those kind words JWagoner812. I had braces for three years and one of the people who didn't regularly bullied me decided to chant "braceface" one day while I was leaving the playground. I yelled out for them to "go milk a *beep* cow" (I don't know where that phrase came from). They, along with their friends, shut up and never said anything to me after that day. Sometimes the weirdest things stop people from doing or saying anything else - unfortunately, for the majority of the bullies, this isn't the case.

Did you get in trouble for kicking and punching the girl who attacked you in the Eighth grade? If I stood up for myself at all I would get in trouble, even if I just said "shut up". This was in a Jr. High school that supported and encouraged bullying - I have no respect for anyone who worked their and am not friends with anyone there.

High School would have been better, I moved out of the city I was living in just to escape the bullying but one of the people who bullied me from the Jr. High school moved as well and three months after I started attending the High School, the bully started attending there as well. The bully got the people in that school to bully me as well; he told me that I was called "Scary Terry" in that Jr. High school, and even though I tried to ignore it, the name and bullying still spread like wildfire. Reporting the incidents didn't do anything as the staff would not do anything about it; not even when I was assaulted. The only time anything was done was when the guy contributed to a hate thread about me by saying "Nobody actually likes her, nobody can stand her at all and you can tell she knows it yet she tries like a *beep* psychopath to be your friend". In this incident, the principal called the guy's mother and had her come to the school, but that was it.

I should mention that I don't "try like a *beep* psychopath to be your friend" - I would just be nice to people but that particular incident (the post the guy made) changed me. I stopped being so nice - I wouldn't cause issues but I would not offer to help anyone who needed help with something, unless they asked. You could say that these experiences made me a little selfish - I would take care of those I care about (such as family members) but the rest of the world is pretty much on its own. I have helped people but ended up being taken advantage of nearly every single time; people pretend to be my friend, the last person to do this was not the guy who posted "Nobody actually likes her, nobody can stand her at all...", it was someone I thought was my friend for a few years; he showed his true colors in 2009 by doing something really nasty and stopped in 2015 when my mom called his parents - he was stalking me online, mainly Wikipedia - I would not post pictures or anything bad but I edited some of the same articles he edited since we both liked some of the same TV shows. He started harassing me on Wikipedia by sending me a nasty message from a fake account but he only posted things that only he would know. When I asked him on MSN Messenger if he did it, he said no and blocked me from messaging him. However, he continued to do things from his actual account and continued to make fake accounts just to post nasty things to and about me. It turned out he was friends with an administrator on Wikipedia so I was always blocked because they said I was stalking him since we both edited the same articles. I made a new account and only edited articles on things I liked that he did not like (such as Rescue Heroes). He knew I liked Rescue Heroes so he would go on that page and look at the edit history, see my username than report me and I would be blocked for "Sock Puppetry". And, because we lived in the same city our IP Addresses were similar so every account he made to harass me with was then linked to my original account - the administrators thought I was harassing myself. Things backfired on him in the end though, since whenever I reported his harassment I would not state who he was yet when he would make the accounts and claim innocence he gave his real name so the administrators (excluding the one that was his friend) thought that this was a guy with no life and was harassing his own self then reporting it just to get attention!

When I finally quit Wikipedia in 2015 I sent him a message saying that I was done with Wikipedia thanks to him but I would continue editing Rescue Heroes items on non-Wikipedia related websites (such as IMDb - even though I did not tell him it would be IMDb; I am also the main editor for the Rescue Heroes TV Series on www.tv.com) and if he ever figured out I was the editor on a website that contained Rescue Heroes items and sent me a message then it would show that he has not dropped his obsession (I was told that he appears to be obsessed with me; I showed his posts to a close friend of mine - she also saw his posts to me on a different website and said the fact that he was stalking me must mean he has no life and is obsessed with me). Up until this point he would send nasty e-mails to me (he hacked my e-mail account once; this prompted me to get a new e-mail address), impersonate me, and when I had a Facebook picture of myself up he put it on a website saying I was a w**** looking to *beep* anyone (even though I had him blocked - he made a fake account with a fake name just to get my profile picture and post it on various websites). I found out that he put a picture of me on a website when I looked my name up on Google one day - I reported the profile and it was removed; this guy is now 29 years old (he is two years older than me) and has never acted his age; from all of the things he did to me he has only proven to be one thing: immature.

I would like to have you as a friend; thank you for offering to pray but you do not have to; we all have struggles in life and in the end the only person that can truly help you deal with these issues is yourself (at least that's what I have found).

[–] arslantariq 8 years ago

I cannot imagine how hard it was for you to go through all that bullying. I hope one day you can overcome your PTSD. You are an intelligent and brave person. Never underestimate yourself. You are a much better person than all those bullies and the staff at that Jr. High.

[–] Saturn_24 8 years ago

Thank you. It wasn't just the Jr. High. It was the Elementary, Jr. High, and High School; some of the people that bullied me will still do so if they see me and sometimes post stuff online. I don't want to sound like "poor me" but all of this is true, and I find it weird that I was bullied almost exactly like Carrie. Oh yea, I also live with a control-freak mother who is similar to Carrie's except she isn't religious - my mother will flip out if you don't do what she wants, even if it means staying up for another hour and entertaining her if it's late at night and you want to go to bed. It seems like Stephen King predicted the future, in a way, because my life is very similar to Carrie's.

[–] bradster67 8 years ago

Saturn, what I want to say to you is that I hope you found writing about it cathartic...as if putting it (or typing it) in actual words helped you get passed some of the pain and the brutality you went through...or at least alleviate some of the emotion.

Always remember, regardless of what the bullies told you, you are the better person compared to all of them.

If you haven't found a career choice yet, you should be a writer. You're a lovely writer.

It takes guts to share your story as you did. Thank you.

Blessings.

[–] Saturn_24 8 years ago

Thank you; I did not post this thread as a rant but just as a comparison between Carrie and I. I graduated college with an Honours Diploma in the Administrative Specialist program - my overall average was 96%. I am now looking for work. I thought about being a writer but decided not to since it can be difficult to get work published and people to purchase your work, even if you use an alias. I would rather have a job that is not based on the chance of getting items (such as books) purchased; I like dealing with the facts and being practical, that's why I chose to do the Administrative Specialist program.

What did you study in college or university?

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