Yes I can.
I met a friend (let's call her Anne) years ago who I would see once a year, more or less on that same day, for the next couple years at our mutual friend's birthday party. I would wait all year just so I could see her. I think it was the second year after I met her that she came to the party with a boyfriend. A boyfriend that she is still with to this day.
Fast-forward a few years, and one night I finally got to know Anne. We got along famously, like we had known each other for years. From that a great, effortless, natural friendship grew between she and I.
Some time later, a group of us went out to dinner. Anne and I were very close the entire night, a lot of physical contact, and the spark that existed between us grew and grew. Sometime that night, I realized I was crazy about this girl. There was a picture taken of the two of us, and in it I have never looked so happy. I have my arm around the girl of my dreams.
Time went by, and I saw her now and again. I was involved with other girls, but the spark was always there for Anne, if only deep down. Anne and I began to spend time alone together. Nothing happened beyond talking and some closeness on the couch, but there was the aura of romance in the air.
One night Anne came over again and began to open up to me, saying that her parents don't like her boyfriend because [basically] he's a bum who can't hold a job and could never support Anne as a wife. The way Anne told me this, it was like she begrudgingly accepted that there was no future with him. She also told me that she can talk to me in a way that she can't with anyone else, not even her boyfriend.
It was around this time that Anne began to call me her husband, and talk about our future. When I would further the conversation, she would withdraw.
I have always felt that Anne has had feelings for me, and I think she knows that I have always had feelings for her. It was just like in One Day, Emma and Dexter always want to be with each other but for a while no one really explicitly says it.
There's something between us that is so natural, and like I said earlier, effortless. I hope that one day something can happen between us, but I can't hold my breath. She has always said she is going to marry her boyfriend, and I'm just waiting for that day, if it ever comes (for reasons stated above.) With that in the back of my mind, I have tried to distance myself from her so I don't get too deep into something that will never go anywhere, but one way or another she and I end up together again, and the spark re-ignites.
On top of all that, friends who have no idea I have feelings for Anne have told me that she and I should be together, or asked why we're not. Hell, I'm pretty sure my mother even wants me to be with her!
We'll see what the future holds. Maybe by year eighteen we'll be together.
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-'What do you look for in another human being?'
-'Stone Cold Steve Austin...'
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