I started this show a couple weeks ago. I was instantly hooked! I couldn't stop watching. Jackie is witty and fiesty. She's an addict but she's an amazing nurse. As the seasons progress they start to get darker and more depressing. I was really rooting for Jackie! I wanted her to end up happy and clean. I know the ending is probably more realistic to an actual addict but man it's depressing. I ended the show minutes ago wishing I had never started it.
shareIt's rough isn't it? When you realize that Jackie never really tried to stop abusing, the whole series takes on an entirely different tone in retrospect.
-Rod
:(. So sad. I was seriously tore up about this all night!!! I even had to change my rating on the show. I was rooting for her the entire time.
shareI think it hit me when she used with the drug dealer in the bathroom at the country line dancing bar and then let him go down on her while her cop boyfriend was just outside. I realized then that Jackie was doomed from the first episode. I loved the cop, and I loved her friends, and I loved her kids, and I loved her ex-husband...I loved how she treated and cared for her patients...but Jackie loved the drugs more than all of them. It was that itch she had to scratch, the addiction, the high she was chasing that mattered more to her than anything else.
I once watched a documentary where a heroin addict described his first time. He said it felt like the most wonderful cozy warm blanket. But when it wore off, it was like being naked in the bitter cold. He said he didn't know he was cold before he used that first time, but after that day all he wanted was to feel warm again, and that feeling has never gone away, no matter how long he remains sober.
Of all the great characters in this show, "Jackie's Addiction" is the unseen character, the real antagonist, the villain that was the root of all the turmoil and unhappiness. I realized I didn't hate Jackie as much as I hated her addiction.