Hello,
I was a hard drug user once in my life, mostly smoking cocaine. I still use marijuana and I do get alcohol intoxicated between three and five times a month, maybe more if situations are suitable. I went to rehab about 20 years ago, and found it to be a bunch of hogwash. I went to the rehab to medically and psychologically get me off the crack cocaine, and was instead fed a bunch of Twelve Step garbage and being told I have a "disease". Eventually, I got off of crack by leaving the country.
Off the subject, but I have experimented with meth three times, once back in the early 1990's and twice in the 00's. Frankly, I do not get meth at all or why people like doing it. The last time, I was full of negative energy, paranoid to the point where I thought people were staring through the security hole in my door, through the windows (although I lived in a high rise building with no ledge. Couldn't rest, couldn't sleep. I was just WIRED for hours and hours and hours and hours. I was seeing shadows in the walls. In short, I do not get people who want to be on a drug that makes one feel like that.
I have never done heroin (and wont), but I get heroin. From all I have seen and heard, it is a drug that RELAXES the user. People high on heroin just chill out, sleep, nod off, and allow the drug to give them a warm ephoroia. Problem is that sh.t is physically addicting, and it makes people do insane, criminal stuff to just get another high. These people remind me of my crack times, stealing, cheating, forgery, whatever.
I still use marijuana. I just "dosed" myself now. Marijuana is wonderful. I tell people, don't use "hard drugs", use marijuana.I like alcohol, but 90 percent of the time the hangover is hell (and relieved by marijuana). I just do not get a drug that makes people anxious, hyper, paranoid and insane. I do not get meth at all. Clue me in.
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Dragon000
8 years ago
I too was a hard drug user, and am now a counselor. My drugs of choice were meth and weed, although I used pretty much anything I could get my hands on. Like all drugs, meth sucks you in by being fun at first, and then it turns on you. You feel energetic, creative, inspired, motivated, all that good stuff. But then you get hooked (I was shooting up, so getting hooked was inevitable) and even if you realize you are losing your mind, you are addicted, so you need more.
Anyway, the 12-steps are not for everyone, and total abstinence is not for everyone either. You gotta do what works for you.
However, don't fool yourself into thinking that marijuana is harmless. It causes brain damage, lung damage, memory loss, and it IS addicting, both mentally and physically. I get that in the scheme of things it is not as bad as harder drugs, but it is still a drug, bottom line.
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