Ohman, you tell me this now?! NOW?! Whe the chater featuring Sesshy's Mom's already been written and published on fanfiction.net?! NOW you tell me these things?!
Well, the part where she said she didn;t care may just be out of frustration. Like she's trying to help him bt not taing it, so she just gets frustrated (like any Mom that has a son like him would) ad said, "Fine, you don;t want help, you're on yur own!" But that's her son, I'd THINK she cares!
Here, I'l post some of the chapter of my story (which is published so can;t be changed) and see what you think:
"Is THAT what that was all about? Sesshomaru, why didn't you tell me you were feeling like this? I would have told you the truth then if I knew our separation would have affected you so much."
"The truth, Mother?"
"About the marriage. My Son, your father and I didn't separate because things went wrong in our marriage. We separated because it was the right thing to do for both of us."
"How so?"
"The marriage was ARRANGED, Sesshomaru. Your father and I had no say in it."
Sesshomaru's eyes grew wide at this revelation. "Arranged?"
"Yes. Both of our Fathers owned shares of the Western lands…you remember your Grandfathers?"
"How could I not, Mother? They helped to teach me their fighting secrets before they died."
"Well, they both owned shares of the Western Lands and they were very good friends. They decided to unite their Lands and rule together…and what better way, according to them, then to marry off their children? In fact, the very first time I ever met your father was three days before our wedding, at a special engagement party our fathers threw to celebrate. I mean, don't get me wrong, your father was kind, respectful, gentile, yet fearless, brave, strong…and he always treated me well during our marriage. We tried to make it work..we did. We were married for over 500 years..but I don't think we were ever really in love."
"Like the kind of love Inuyasha and Kagome share?"
"Yes…OR," she started hard at her son. "The love your father and IZIYOI shared! The kind of love that feels special. Like you want to be near that person forever and your heart will break if you don't. The connection that you feel the moment you know this person is the one. I never felt that with your Father. We became the best of friends, but we couldn't get past that. I mean, it wasn't bad at all, married to him. Not at all. Besides, two years after the wedding, we received the most blessed gift we ever had," she touched her son's cheek tenderly. Sesshomaru smiled a tiny half smile. "Believe me, Sesshomaru, even though your father and I never loved each other…we both loved YOU. I can still remember when you were born, and he held his firstborn son for the first time. His eyes glowed with love and pride. I'd never seen him look like that before, like for a few moments, he felt nothing could go wrong in the world. I felt the same way as well. A few days later we threw a formal feast to celebrate…and your father wouldn't let you go. He couldn't stop showing you off, and I was the same way. I wouldn't trade my years with your father for anything,…and I wouldn't give YOU up for anything in the world. Even though you made me crazy a lot…and I DO mean a LOT…" Sesshomaru lowered his head a bit. "you're what I'm most grateful for than anything."
"As are you, Mother. Both you and Father. But…why DID you both finally separate?"
"If you will recall it happened just one year after my own father died. Inio's father died a year before than. Both your Father and I were raised to be obedient to our elders, so we were obliged to stay in the marriage. When our parents died we realised that we didn't have to live a lie anymore and we can free ourselves to find REAL love. Don't you think it would be better for us to do that than stay in a lie forever?"
"Yes, Mother. To stay would have been hippocritical, seeing as how you have raised me to always be honest. But, Mother, why didn't you ever tell me this?"
"I didn't want you to feel like you were born in a loveless marriage.."
"But I was."
"True, but I was worried how that would have made you feel, and I didn't want to put you through that. I didn't want you to feel that we were obligated to have you, that your grandfather forced us to have you. True, he wanted us to provide an heir, but he never nagged or forced us, and in a way you WERE unexpected…but you were the most important thing to us, and we wanted you to know that even though we didn't love each other, we loved YOU. I was worried you wouldn't feel that way if you knew the truth."
"Mother, I would have understood. I know you and Father loved me. I loved both of you as well."
"Believe me, I didn't love your Father…but he became my very dearest friend. Remember the weeping willow tree that was planted in my castle? The one your Father gave to me on our 30th wedding anniversary?"
"Yes, of course. I loved to sit under that tree. You would give me my lessons under there if the weather was nice."
"If your father and I had parted on unfriendly terms, do you think I would have kept that tree in the backyard?"
"No, Mother. You would have pulled it out of the ground and more than likely destroyed it."
"But I didn't. That tree was very special to me, and when your father died, I took good care of the tree and preserved it as a memory to my dearest friend. We were friends if nothing more, and as his friend, don't you think it would have been very wrong to keep him in something we were both in a sense trapped in? Wouldn't that be more selfish than anything else?"
"It would, Mother. I agree with you."
"I'm glad, even though I know at first you didn't. It did hurt me when you chose to live with your father, even though I can certainly understand why you did it. You always idolized your father, even when you were little." Her eyes got a faraway look at them. "I can still remember you as a small child, watching your father practice so intently…following his every move. It was so sweet to observe. No wonder you wanted to live with him. But we kept in touch all the time, sending messages back and forth to each other..mainly about you." she stopped to shake her head at him. "And the MANY stunts you pulled. Stunts due mainly to your unjust prejudice of humans! I never knew where you got this from! I liked humans, so did your Father, obviously. Sesshomaru, you drove that man to distraction! We didn't know what to DO with you! We yelled at you until we were blue in the face, your Father struck you several times, even I did…and I hated to do that, nothing worked. Nothing got through to you. That performance you gave at your own Father's wedding, when you couldn't even bother to show up for it…THAT was just lovely for him. You DO remember that day?"
"How could I not, Mother? I am still ashamed of that."
"Well as you should be! I can't forget that day, either. I had no problem with him marrying Iziyoi, not at all! From his messages describing her, I had never seen him so happy! So in love…I was HAPPY for him, I gave him my blessing…and you couldn't be bothered to! Where WERE you on that day, Sesshomaru? He wanted you. He was waiting by the door of his castle for you, Sesshomaru. Hoping against hope that you, you, his SON, his firstborn, could put aside this prejudice and unjust anger and be there for him on the most important day of his life as his Best Man. He delayed the wedding for an HOUR waiting for you. Even Myoga told him to give up, and he wasn't too fond of Iziyoi either.."
"Beastly little insect..."
"Don't change the subject! He sent a message to me, asking if I knew where you were. Imagine my embarressment when I had to tell him no, I didn't know where you were. Finally your father had to give up, and with a heavy heart, on what was to have been the happiest and proudest day of his life, he had to ask one of his closest friends to take the place of his own SON as his Best Man. Do you have any idea how that made him feel?"
"Hurt. Embarressed. Angry beyond belief. I know, Mother. I remember. When I finally came back, he was just about to leave for his honeymoon, and he growled at me….that..was the first time he had ever done so. He ordered me into my chambers and forbid me to come out until he had come back. He said he had already told the servents to leave my food outside the door for me and not to speak a word to me until he had returned. It was two weeks after he had returned that he did start to talk to me again."
"And your treatment of Iziyoi after that…don't think your father wasn't aware of the looks you gave her behind his back."
"I know, Mother. When I think of what I did to Iziyoi…how I disappointed my father…the horrid thing I did to my own brother…my little brother…I have this pain in my chest when I consider how I treated him..I am so sorry for all I have done. Mother, I was trying to make it up to him before this unspeakable act happened to him."
"We all do things in which we regret, my Son. None of us are perfect, including Demons. I know I haven't always been perfect, especially when it came to raising you.."
"What do you mean, Mother?"
"Well, like your Father I came from a wealthy family, and they indulged me heavily…maybe that's why your father and I couldn't make it work. Maybe I was just too spoiled to be a good enough mother."
"You have been a wonderful Mother. No one is to blame for this but myself. You tried to tell me about humans. You tried to educate me as best as you could, both you and Father did. You both tried to tell me…and I wouldn't listen."
"Maybe this wouldn't have happened if I had only told you the truth about your father and I. I was wrong not to, I'm sorry. But you ARE my firstborn, you didn't come with a set of instructions. I did what I felt was best. All parents do.." she paused at the moment to glance at the sleeping Rin. "You'll learn about that in a few more years."
"I don't know how I would have reacted to Iziyoi if I HAD known the truth, Mother. I'm so sorry I did all of that to her, and to Inuyasha. I DON'T want him to die, Mother. I don't want that vision to ever come true."
"It doesn't have to, My Dear. You don't have to let it. That vision was merely a warning to you. You KNOW what's happened, and you KNOW what went wrong, so fix it. You CAN fix it, I know you can. There's still time, you can make it right."
"I have started to, Mother. It's like I said earlier. You WERE right…what you tried to tell me about humans. A lot of them AREN'T weak…and they DON'T have to have powers to be strong. Sango and Kagome are proof of that. Mother…I like humans."
His mother beamed at this and her gaze went toward Rin again. "I KNEW you did, deep down inside. It just took SOMETHING to bring it out! I'm glad I found it…" she looked at Rin even longer, and her smile grew even wider. "It worked…I'm so glad it worked.."
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