He wanted to be a hero - I believe he comes right out and says that. Then he accidentally shoots himself in the leg, gets sent home and the military now honors him as a hero, but he knows damn well he doesn't deserve it. The thing he valued most, being a hero - is now just crap, and he probably knows now it's been mostly crap all along. That which he valued most cannot be. What's he have to live for now? Didn't seem like he had anything else in his life - he didn't really value much his girlfriend played by Fonda.
I also wondered why he wouldn't instead shoot himself - but then he probably figured he'd be again presented as a hero - who died from gunshot - which he wasn't. Going swimming, drowning, maybe never being found - would avoid all that dishonest crap he was so heart broken about.
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