I truly believe that I am an alcoholic. I come from a family of them, both sides. My alcoholic father made our lives a constant nightmare growing up. I, too never thought of it as a disease, until I came down with it myself in my thirties. I eventually ended up in a mental hospital having the same DTs as Joe, more than once. I know now that addiction is a genetic disorder and I was primed for having it. After the last time I was hospitalized and went through the horrible DTs, (Padded room, straight jacket and the whole works) I understood. And so after the last time I just plain stopped drinking entirely. I'm now 70 years old, and have tried taking a glass of red wine occasionally to help lower my cholesterol, but the horror of the past keeps coming back and I can't even swallow it. If I take a sip, I get nauseous. My daughter, through her husband who was also an addict, got into it and added drug addiction to it, carrying on the family disease. She was able to overcome it for now, but the potential of it happening to her again is always there, just like it is for me. We should watch my granddaughter carefully, as both her parents have the genes for addiction. (Her father died when, while drunk, he wandered onto the railroad tracks and was hit by the train). Everyone should understand that it is indeed a disease. I'm not certain that addiction is always genetic, but in my case it definitely is. But it's absolutely a disorder and a disease, just like diabetes or heart disease. AA didn't work for me, but it did for my daughter. Each of us needed to find what worked for us. I'm not sure exactly what worked for me, but I'm only glad something did.
reply
share