Has anybody else ever dealt with a serious onset of depression & anxiety
I haven't been posting for a while because somehow I've been in a serious funk. There have been so many things on my mind as of late whether it be my school work, feeling a desire to change my lifestyle habits, and feeling anxious about the incoming year.
For one reason or another, by last Thursday, I was somewhat of a physical and emotional wreck. I had little desire to eat, I was tired and full of remorse, guilt, worry, and self-doubt. Not just about the past but my immediate future. I think that talking about it and going outside to take on new experiences has slowly helped me get better. I'm not completely "recovered" yet, but it won't happen over night.
The thing about feeling depressed is that you suddenly just don't really care. You don't have much desire or motivation to eat or to be active. It's just that you're energy level is at an all time low. All that you really want to do and look at as a refuge of sorts is lay in the bed (even if you're so full of anxiety, that's is hard to fall asleep). And even then, that's really not healthy so you're kind of stuck.
What I've learned from this ordeal that I shouldn't think to much about whatever I did wrong or what I could've done in the past. I just have to move forward in hopes of improving myself as a person. I also learned to not rush into things to make up for lost time. Nor should I be so urgent to plan out my immediate future like getting a serious job. As of now, I should just focus on being the best student that I can be.